10 day challenge [wants]

For the 10 day challenge I have to visit my wants which is always fun.

At the moment I am wanting a hot Milo.
I want my children to grow up knowing they are very much loved
I want to be able to complete my uni course
I want to look stunning walking down the isle in September
I want to savor every moment in my life and drink in each detail from my beautiful daughters freckles that scatter themselves playfully upon her cheeks to my sons tiny little fingers and the cheeky way he smiles and laughs

These are my wants!

10 day challenge [fears]

My fears are usually what every mother fears. We tend to fear the worst. More often than not everything is fine, but it's the things that cause those twinges of worry deep in the pit of your stomach... The things that give you that feeling is what I usually fear.

The sickness of a loved one, the worry that something unthinkable can happen during the night, that split second where you think your little one has gone missing in a crowded place.

We had one of my worst fears happen to us last year. Something horrible happened. It has strengthened us all dramatically but it's something I never want to deal with again. I am still having difficulty coming to terms with it. Such a traumatic experience doesn't go away over night, but with the support of our families we are coping together.

Fear is normal. It's when your worst fears come into effect that makes things worst. It's like living a nightmare. The loss of control. Your whole world shattering. The perfect life gone. Families torn apart - that is worse than fear.

10 day challenge [loves]

Loves
This is a pretty easy topic for me.

I love my beautiful daughter. she is the most amazing little girl I know. She has the personality of a 20 year old and the happy carefree attitude of a three year old. She turns the big 4 at the end of May. I dont see her as a three year old though because she has such a fiery attitude and talks and behaves like a child much older then her age. She often tries to mother me and will pull the whole "not funny mum" line. I love her to bits!

I love my handsome little son. He is one of the most perfect creations. He is sweet, innocent and gentle. He smells like newborn and still loves to snuggle up with his mummy. He has gorgeous blue eyes and the faintest hint of blonde hair on his head.

I love my wonderful fiance. He tries his hardest to make me happy. He has recently discovered a love of cooking pastries and tarts so I love him even more when he makes his delicious chocolate tart. He encourages me breastfeeding our son and even makes me lactation cookies when I run out. I love him and im pretty damn sure he loves me.

I love my mum, step-dad & little brother. They are some of the most awesome people I know. My little brother especially so. He has the best taste in music, is always off seeing a new concert.. sometimes more then twice a week. He is super cool.

I love my dear friends. So very much.

I love Autumn.

I love the fact that Im getting married in September.

I love the beach.

I love my cat Mayhem,

I love my puppy Sybil even though she destroys the yard!

~

10 day challenge [secrets]

Secrets are secret for a reason but I shall reveal a few...
I hate housework. The only time the house is spotless is when I know my mother is coming over. Every other day it is just tidy. I keep my poor housewife skills a secret about from her.
I secretly wish we had used our sons middle name as his first name. I love his first name, but I love love love his middle name.
I've always said I hate Metallica but I secretly enjoyed seeing them at the Soundwave festival back in February.
I have a (primarily) boys middle name.
That's all I can think of for secrets... Poor attempt I know, but there really isn't much to reveal!

10 day challenge

Two years ago I did took part in a ten day challenge where I spoke about the different topics you can see above. I think its about time to revisit these topics to see what has changed in the last two years. I will be starting this challenge on Thursday. If  anyone wants to join me, copy the image and post on your blog!

Keep an eye out for my ten day challenge posts!

10 Day Challenge (PICTURE)

PICTURE OF ME!

I took this picture after a long hard day at school (lol) just before I was about to jump in the shower (no I'm not naked.. but damn my hair is thick). 

P.S. I really NEED an eyebrow wax. Think I may go get one in the morning before my "date"

Here it is, me. 

That's the end of the good ol' 10 day challenge.. Woo!

10 Day Challenge (SONGS)

FAVE SONGS

Parabola - tool.

I love this song. It reminds me of the birth of my daughter. 

"Twirling round with this familiar parabol.
Spinning, weaving round each new experience.
Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing.

This body holding me reminds me of my own mortality.
Embrace this moment. Remember. we are eternal.
All this pain is an illusion."

Change in the House of Flies - Deftones.

This song is my "im depressed so I shall wallow in it" song. I play it when I feel like absolute shit. It reminds me of my own demise. It reminds me of him. It reminds me of a time once lived.

And yet, I love it. I can listen to it over and over and it still sends me to that same place in my head. and I enjoy being there. This it what makes it into my top two.

(I know I'm only suppose to post two.... but....

This song is everything about my life this week... sort of. Chocolate and Cigarettes - Angus and Julia Stone. I love them oh so very much, but this song is currently speaking to me)

10 DAY CHALLENGE (films)

FAVE FILMS


Candy! I love this film. It always induces a little sob. It's such a passionate movie.



Clerks 2. Funny light hearted movie. One of my faves to put on just to have a chuckle.




Fightclub. Need I say more? Fave movie of all time!

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10 Day Challenge (BOOKS)

FAVOURITE BOOKS:

Lost Souls - Poppy Z. Brite. 

 I love this book. My cousin brought it for me at a trash and treasure market from a couple of uni students. It cost $2. I love the way she writes, but this is my favourite novel of hers. It's fantastic.

Bloodlust - Melissa Deitz. 

I got this little treasure from some book sale they were having at the Exhibition Centre in Darling Harbour. I was 15 when I brought it. It was read, re-read, then shared with friends. It is still, by far, a great light read for when I need some perking up. It's great.

A Kiss of Shadows - Laurell K. Hamilton. 

I love the Meredith Gentry Series. This is the first book in the series and although it's a bit slow to get into, when you finally get started you can't stop. This series was a massive time filler for when I was pregnant. It was great!

Popcorn - Ben Elton.  

I love love love this book! I don't recall when I actually did read it, I just remember not being able to put it down. It runs together so smoothly. My favourite character is Scout. She wears floral dresses and a pair of Doc Martins, and her boyfriend and her go on a killing spree, and then hold a movie director hostage so he can vouch that the violence in his movie is responsible for their violence so they can avoid the death penalty. It's just a great book. I recommend it for a bit of light reading.

P.S.  I would like to finish this post of by letting you know that yes I am aware I have used "I" quite a lot.

10 Day Challenge (FOODS)

FAVOURITE FOODS:

1. Feta.. Absolutely love it!
2. Sashimi! I had been craving it the last couple of days so I splurged and brought lunch out. Best lunch ever, I love sashimi!
3. Olives.. Goes great with feta. Yum.
4. Tzatziki. Goes great when making a mezze platter - with the olives and feta.
5. Mushrooms. I love mushrooms sautéed in butter. Mmmm so good.

10 Day Challenge (PLACES)

PLACES I WANT TO GO:

1. The Goldcoast! Surfers Paradise. We go every year, we haven't organised this years trip, but I'm hoping to plan it around December. Tilda's Great-Nana on her dads side lives up there, so we try to visit at least for a week just so she can spend some quality time with her.

2. I would really really really really (really) love to go back to Thailand. It is the most amazing place. I love it very much!

3. I would love to visit Vietnam. My Grandad spent a lot of time over there. He use to buy me dolls and silk dresses from Vietnam and bring them home for me. He fought in the Vietnam war, so he felt a connection with the people. We have an ongoing joke in the family that we have relatives over there. (joke or serious.. not sure.)

4. Tasmania! I have been all over Australia, but the places I am yet to see is Melbourne and Tasmania. We should be going to Tassie at the start of May for Matt's sisters 30th. This picture is taken from her backyard!

5. Matt and I really want to take Matilda to the Sydney Aquarium. We have both been there before, we just are yet to take Matilda. I think a trip in the next few months are imperative.

6. Canada! A lot of my friends have been, and I am kinda jealous! It looks amazing (just from looking at their holiday snaps). So this is a place I would like to go.. If I ever get the money!!

Canada Image 

 Goldcoast image

 Phuket image

Vietnam image

Sydney Aquarium image 

10 Day Challenge (wants)

WANTS:

1. I want the best for my daughter. Thats the biggest thing I want, It's probably the only thing I want. I would give anything up to make her life the best it can be.
2. I want... a new car lol. This is something I would only think about getting after Matilda gets her license and does not require driving lessons in my new fancy car :-)
3. Another want would be... uhh.. um.. I want to get my eyebrows waxed. I'm looking a bit mountain woman-ish. 
4. I want to get my diploma at the end of the year. I'm really excited to be going back to school in the morrow. 
5. I want... my new budget to work out, get the savings happening again. Kinda broke after christmas.
6. I want a coffee.. better yet, I want a N'espresso machine.. nomnomnom.
7. I would also like a Kitchenaid mixer

I hated writing this list... very much. 

10 Day Challenge (fears)

FEARS:

1. My first and most obvious fear is losing loved ones... This fear never leaves me. I worry about it all the time and work through the what ifs until I convince myself that "nothing will happen, and if it does, it is probably inevitable". Its such a horrible fear.
2. Every time I go to start my car up, I usually have the fear it wont start.
3. I fear maggots. Nuff said.
4. I fear the unknown.
5. I fear fear....
6. I really don't fear that many things... um I fear the milk being sour when I go to pour it into my coffee.
7. I fear loneliness.
8. I fear not being able to meet my goals in life.

10 Day Challenge (loves)

Joining in with Tara over at our whirlwind adventures

LOVES:

1. My daughter is the first entry on this list. My life would be empty without her. She makes every day interesting, adds colour wherever she goes, makes the days easier, the world turn.. etc. You get it, I love her. Nuff said.
2. The first morning light that makes it through my blinds in the morning. I'm rarely up to see it, but it makes me happy, therefore I will claim it as a love.
3. I love my cat. He is a super awesome cat. Truly. 
4. I love the smiles my daughter gives me when she first wakes up. They make my day.
5. My family are great. They definitely make it onto the list of loves.
6. I love sushi!
7. FAOTL. Still. Always. Forever.
8. I love sitting down, having a coffee and reading a good book (the coffee usually goes cold by the time I get to it lol).
9. I love the beach.

10 Day Challenge (secrets)

Joining in with Tara over at our whirlwind adventures

Secrets:

1. I hate chocolate. Nobody knows this. I have never had the heart to tell my family and friends this, therefore I still receive chocolate for birthdays, Christmas, Easter and mother day.. I cant stand it. It sits in my fridge until I decide I can probably chuck it out or re-gift it. Just thinking about chocolate makes me nauseous.
2. I secretly enjoy listening to Kesha, Creepy? yes I know... I dont know why, It's odd for me. "What are you're fave bands?". Me - "Tool, A Perfect Circle, Angus and Julia Stone, Cradle of Filth..... Kesha". Just doesn't fit does it?
3. I hate maggots. Maggots to me are what spiders are to most people. They make me squeal in terror.
4. My ex has in his possession a home made "adult" video from back in the day. I've asked him on many occasions to get rid of it. I doubt he has. Creepy man.
5. I hate washing up. I would bargain my way out of doing it. I would prefer to mow the lawns then to wash up. 
6. I occasionally play COD online when Tilds goes to bed. I suck at it. Badly. 

That's all I'm giving away. I think that's plenty.